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Sweat it out.  A radical departure from who you were. Awakening.

To unidentify with your Ego, is a radical departure from who you have been.  You may sweat. No antiperspirant will do. Not even the kind with sparkles. It’s a full sauna.

It is understandable that you may feel a strong refusal of the call. You may seek out the pill of Denial. To deny that it’s happening. You may even try to negotiate to maintain the old familiar form.  You may find yourself trying to convince yourself to stay. You may clinging to the old world- just to keep it going. It’s your fear of the unknown. It can convince you into settling for, rather than going for Awakening.

It takes sweat. It takes sweating it out.  Just notice your refusal of the call to Awaken. You can remain here indefinitely. You can numbly sleepwalk through your life. Some girls do. Are you one of those girls?

Once you breakthrough and heed the call, you begin.

It’s a call to adventure.

Who are you without your Ego Girl?

What will be your new way of Being?

Are you ready to give up one consciousness to have another?

Know that some girls will not head the call.

Wipe the sweat from your forehead. Pat the back of your neck with a cold cloth. Sit with this. Sweat it out. Know that this heat wave with pass. You may not even have to re-apply your make-up. You may decide to put your REAL face forward.

The REAL YOU.

Naturally beautiful.

 The problem with figuring out your life. Egostyle to Freestyle.

Be in style.

Egostyle to Freestyle.

Have you ever realized that you were dressed for THEM and not for YOU?

Either way you are stylin? Right? Ummmmmm…. No. Not really.

Are you showing up for Life dressed -Egostyle?

Or are you showing up for Life ready- to Freestyle? (wayyyyy more comfortable clothes)

If stylin is where it’s at, and you want to “style”, then check-out this new fashion statement.

There is Freestyle and there is Egostyle. When you attempt to figure out your life = you go Egostyle on it. You get all sorts of crazies over the future. You future- trip (like a drug trip).   Not only are you tripping-out on the future projections but you mix a really bad drink at this party. What’s worse than that drink you’re holding? You trip over Today. You totally miss THIS step. You miss Today. You miss out on YOU.

You want YOU – don’t you?

You’ve heard that saying….”Knowledge is Power”. Right? Well hold-up, because getting to YOU takes unlearning. It takes clear thinking. And being YOU does not require any great learning. At some point your hunger for knowledge gets in your way of the REAL PARTY.  I mean really in your way of Life.

You try to figure it all out. Don’t ya? Isn’t that a way of trying to control the uncontrollable? Figuring out an unfigurable future? Well, that’s what we call crazy. It certainly leads crazy-making. Don’t ya think? You are stuck in your mind- figuring out… (um let’s see) nothing! You can’t figure out the future. You can get stuck figuring. More importantly, you can get a headache!

We can’t control what we can’t control. (I know that sounded obvious) AND we can’t control the future. If you got that, then who’s still trying at this point?

Would you like a different option in Life?

Would you like a different style?

Ding, dong! Open the door, because I invite you to THIS party. Let’s go Freestyle on Life. Let’s see where this wild party takes us. Let’s go with it. Maybe have a glass of water. Wear something comfortable. Experience the party.

What’s freestyle? It is sort of like improvisational living. You just go with it. You dance to whatever music the DJ decided to play and no one is telling you how to move. You could do the chicken dance for all we care. Freestyle rap means: to improv/ perform with no previously composed lyrics, or just work it “off the top of the head”.

So girl…. Spit out a few lyrics. Jam to the beat. Be free. Free to be YOU. Free to rap out Life. Free to Freestyle. And wear whatever the heck you like! Designer or not. Wear it. Style!

BE in style!

BE YOU.

*Let them know that *I* said you could wear it.

Who is running your World? The Ego? Are you a rat in the Rat Race?

Have you gained the whole World but sacrificed your Life?

Are you a material girl? Living in a material World?

Waking up sooner, rather than later……

 Your Life scenario A: Remember a time…. when someone told you your were awesome…when you were on the top of your game… when you were hott…when you succeeded… when you were praised, accepted and applauded, acknowledged….. when you had power, when you were the girl in charge, when your peers looked up to you, when you were popular, when you were fabulous. Bring up that feeling – just for a moment.

 Your Life scenario B: Contrast that with a time you watched something beautiful in nature, when you witnessed it alone. A sunrise. (no camera phone) A sunset. The brilliant colors of the leaves in autumn. Nature in all its glory. Perhaps you felt this way arriving at the ocean. Maybe you felt this on your travels- seeing a wonder of nature in some other country. Even more so, refresh in your mind a time that you really enjoyed a job you did …. Or when you gave something to someone— expecting nothing in return. Or when you felt truly connected to the company around you. When you had companionship, intimate friendship. When you were part of a group and there was a circle of fun and laughter. Togetherness. When you felt like YOU.

Go back for a second, and again recall the feeling inside when you were being approved of. This is a Worldy feeling. Come to know the difference. Then call it what it really is; self-promotion and self-glorification. Use those feelings to compare them self-fulfillment (a deep within your soul-type) feeling of witnessing nature in all its beauty. Being YOU for a brief moment. Feeling connected by an invisible thread.

Distinguishing the difference in Worldy feelings and Soul feelings. Find the one outside of you and the one inside of you. Attempt to understand the difference by feeling.

Your life scenario A is not Natural. It is manufactured. It’s plastic. Like credit cards. It does not lead to nourishment of the soul or happiness. It produces excitement, thrills, roller-coaster rides- then emptiness. At which point you wait for the next round of approval to feel. You wait for the next ride. And you pay for that ticket on the next ride. You pay dearly. You pay with your Life. You will have to keep up. I call this the Rat Race of life. Picture a mouse on a wheel running, getting nowhere, getting exhausted. Jumping off and jumping back on consciously and unconsciously.
Ask yourself: Do you have a life contaminated with this desire for excitement, thrills, material wealth? Are you a material girl? Have you noticed this Rat Race produces more desire for attention, fame, popularity, success, and power? You will have to keep up.

Glance at the girls around you. Is there anyone you can see who is not addicted to the same Worldly feelings? Do you know a non-material girl? Is there anyone around you not controlled by this desire, hungry all the time, spending every minute of their waking life desiring? Charging up their credit cards or putting them in the freezer?

What do you see? I thought so. They are attempting to gain the World and in the process =lose their Soul. They drive a Lexus and live an empty, soulless life. See their blank stare from behind the wheel.

What really matters? The Lexus or your Life?

I bet you have a yearning in your Soul.

That is not a question.

Journey into Awakeville

Journal out of Sleepytown

When you take a different road and the Ego falls away. You truly live your Life.

PART I-  Moon pointing Madness

Look at the moon. Hey, look at the Moon. No. Seriously. LOOK at the MOON!

Do you want to wake up? How asleep are you to Life? Awakeville is not far around the corner. Ignore the sign pointing the other way. It was deceptively planted by your Ego. Sleepytown aint so sleepy. Awakeville is restfull.

After my introduction to it All (taste-test call with  about being Egoless), I was left with a bit of Ego shell shock. The following days I had what you would call a full head-on collision to it all. Resistance in plain English.  A friend of mine commented to another concerned friend of mine. “She will recycle soon.” And now I have. I am much better. Recycled.

The trouble was that I was asking myself the question, “Do I really want to be awake?” (I know this is silly to ask now.) 

My thoughts went like this…maybe the trouble is I have too much time on my hands to think? Could I even attempt this type of deep level questioning while keeping up with the rat-race of life? Nope. Probably not. I would be IN it. Asleep. Self-questioning really stuck me in a rut. Stuck me asleep. I kept asking, “Do I really want to observe all of this that is going on (or not really going on)?” Huh? Exhausted by internal conflict I sat and had a moment. Observing. Came back. Blink, Blink.  Where was I during all of this (my life as I just saw it)? Why was my mind in so much denial? I thought I was “taking an honest look” at my life? Haven’t I been doing the max amount of self help work a girl can do? I considered myself a self-help junkie. So why did I not want to see the Truth? What is so wrong with being neutral in life? Oh yeah… because being neutral I would have to face what is? Why am I even asking questions now? Pause.

Exploring unchartered territory, I ventured and attended the evening Satsang with Michael to delve deeper into this experience. Into This.  They called the conversationalist meeting “Lifting the Veil”. A bunch of talkers and listeners gathered. Some with their arms crossed. All searching for awakeness ready to poke holes in the idea. Do you suppose they all wanted to lift the veil? What was this all about anyway? I forgot. Oh yeah, right.. saying YES and Waking up.  I wondered what would happen.

You cannot figure out Awakening.

Every Ego sat there fully charged, switched on. I observed them and their interrogation. They asked how to figure out this waking up process.  I realized that we cannot figure out Awakening. It just won’t work. I got it.  He said the better we do at this figuring out business, the farther away we end up from actually Awakening. (The better at it you are, the worse off you are.) That made sense. How-you ask? Well, if figuring is thinking, and thinking is the Ego… then ….if I am thinking I am Egoing. Even more so, if I am figuring out Awaking, I am therefore sleeping. Not hard to follow.

Look for the moon.

Moon= Awakeness

In the hour of conversating (the Ego’s delight) he pointed up and said to us, “Look at the moon! “ We all looked at his finger. After all we were in a room, unable to look at the sky.  The gathering sat there quietly, each thinking to themselves… “What is he realllllly trying to say?” (Funny hey?) Admittingly, he let us know he was trying to say something that cannot be said.  He said listen to what he is trying to say and not what he is actually saying. ( I got that. I wondered if others did too?)

 Pointing to the moon was how he was trying to explain this (Awakening) to us. We had to be cool with the trying part. We had to get past the tryingness. In the meantime, we forgot our goal. What we were aiming for, was to see the moon (to be Awake). We were shooting for the moon but instead we were single- mindedly looking at this finger. We were totally missing the moon. It was a shot in the dark.

How can this be? Why cant we see it? It is like…. something insisted (Ego) that we look at this finger pointing, which really was his trying that he mentioned. The irony of it all was that we were not going to find it outside of ourselves  (watching someone point out somewhere). We weren’t even going to see it. Not at all.  It could only be found inside of ourselves- he reminded us. Looking inside us we will find Awakening. (Although,  it does not have to be found which is another bizarre twist to moon spotting dilemma.) Looking outside of ourselves we are but dreaming. Are we not? We are talking about the opposite here. Non-dreaming.  We are fumbling around trying to talk about waking up. We are trying to see something that can’t be seen.

So here we conversationalists sat diligently glancing at his finger practically blind-folded by our Egos. He continued pointing to the moon, when he stumps us with.. “Now stop looking and just be with it. Just be with the moon. Alls you have to do is quit looking now.”

Just be with the moon. That’s why you can’t see it. You have to be it.

What if it really is that simple?

Who inside of us is making this whole darn Awakening thing hard?

Who is fixated on finger pointing?

Who is dead-set on figuring this all out?

It is just moon. Those still lost on this road to nowhere… continued to ask…What is he realllllly trying to say?

Good night Sleepytown.

Close your eyes and the moon is gone.

Open your eyes and the moon is there.

But it has always been there.

There is no finding the moon.

There is no finding yourself.

 It’s there. You’re there.